{ i'm still trying }

many people envy at others.
for their good luck,for their inborn talent,for their charisma,for there charm
for anything that they lack of.
I jealous of other ppl's good luck before,
and I'll complain,I'll think it's not fair at all...

but,
i'll never think this way anymore.
i strive as hard as i can,
n i'll get more choices,
n I choose what i want the most.

this is my first choice that i made for my life,
and te fact is tt i was a bit perplexed at it.
but in the end i believe in myself.
yea,that's a big progress :)

oow..feel so sick today :(
it's the feeling of warm body,vomiting throat, and dizzy head (again)
and with a unheard-of suffering in the morning..
i had e feeling of something dirty stick to my body :(
oh gosh.
btw, dont really like Mr.bean...(although the movie is really funny:P)
to me,TMNT is much better!


Just do what we can do ,and dont think too much about the rest that we cant do anything about it.



{ i'm still trying }

{ confused }

Hello?
are you two there?




(silence)





i think,

my Mr. self-esteem and Miss aspiration are lost....
Can you please help me to remind or call them back ?
if you see them around...






{ confused }

{ Personality Tester }
http://kllc5.xddddd.com/mbti/
ppl who know how to read traditional Chinese must try ok?(:



小花 的分析結果：
http://kllc5.xddddd.com/mbti/result.php?token=cf8aaa3288f2ada59a114f471689d7fc
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心理能力的走向-------------------------------------------------------
內向型(Introverted)37.5%
著重內心世界，因反省、感覺和意念而獲得動力
外向型 (Extraverted)62.5%
著重外在世界，因注意外在事情而獲得動力


認識外在世界的方法----------------------------------------------------
直覺型(Intuition)45%
注重事情的可能性與關連性，看見潛在遠景
辨識型(Sensing)55%
使用五官收集資料，強調事實，注重實際和具體觀點


倚賴甚麼方式做決定----------------------------------------------------
理智型(Thinking)40%
根據客觀事實，倚重分析來做決定，注重公平原則
感性型(Feeling)60%
下決定時，以個人觀點出發，重視個人價值、喜好和原則


生活方式和處事態度----------------------------------------------------

熟思型(Perceiving)45%
不介意突發事情，喜歡彈性生活，注重過程而非目標
決斷型(Judging)55%
喜歡有條理的生活，實踐計劃時，以目標為本

你的分類是 ESFJ
最配合的性格組合：ISTP
最不配合的性格組合：ENTJ
- 外向型: 62.5%
- 辨識型: 55%
- 感性型: 60%
- 決斷型: 55%


>>> 基本分析 >>>
ESFJ - 務實的和諧者
是人類中最社交性的
提倡人際關係的和洽，不想與人爭競或爭執
愛負起社會工作或提倡發展社會傳統
工作的對象是人
工作認真，也接受人的意見，需要別人的欣賞
在家尊重父母又易心軟
家中有問題要立即解決
需要愛與被愛
喜歡生日及週年記念
會因悲觀，失望而緊張

成長指引
注視事物光明面避免消極可能性
每日找些時間安靜
用時間去思想自己作為人的價值
面對自己成長，家庭或社會的不善及不認同之處
找些主題作邏輯性、抽象和客觀思考的練習
嘗試共開與別人意見不同，甚至辯論
找些題目去竭力細緻的去想透它
嘗試思想開放些及有彈性些
嘗試在家中找一週或一個月故意不按習慣生活
慷慨些去幫助別人

E
優點： 能運用外在環境資源、樂意與他人來往、開放的態度、行動派、易為他人所了解。
缺點： 不夠立埸、需要和他人共事、喜歡變化、衝動派、討厭規範約束。

S
優點：注意細節、重視實際、能記住鎖碎細節、耐得住煩悶的工作、有耐性、細心有系統。
缺點：失去整體的概念、想不出各種可能解決的途徑、不住直覺、不求創新、無法應付太複雜的工作、不喜歡預測未來。

F
優點：體諒他人感受、了解他人的需要、喜歡和諧的人際關係、易表露情感、喜去說服他人。
缺點：不合乎邏輯、不夠客觀、沒有組織系統的思考、不具批判精神全盤接受、感情用事。

J
優點：有計劃系統的、斷有決心的、有控制的能力、做決定明快。
缺點：固執、不易妥協、沒有彈性、依手邊現有的少許資料做決定、任何批評為工作計劃所控制。




對ESFJ人來說,最重要的是人際關系,并能真實具体地幫助別人。他們待人慷慨大方，喜歡慶祝傳統的節日。
ESFJ人的不同之處在于，他們欣賞問題。他們清楚地看到問題的所在，輕易地分配掉，然后興致勃勃地努力工作。像大多數SJ類型的人一樣，ESFJ人很忠誠于權威，他們心甘情愿的為上級勞動（生命的意義所在），同時希望自己的下級也能如此。

ESFJ人很容易受傷害。當他們受傷時，他們并不會壓抑內心的情緒，他們天生就是那种"意形于色"的人。他們待人熱情和藹，但也不乏將內心的苦水吐露出來的時候。有些ESFJ人就將這种易變的情緒搬到舞台或屏幕上以戲劇的形式表現出來。

ESFJ人的內心受一股強烈的、矛盾的力量沖擊著。他們的是非感強烈地驅使著自己去解救所有被扭曲的真理------- 一种本能的驅動力。所以當他們一發現有逾越者時,就會采取快速、迅捷的行動，而隨之而來的可能是嚴厲的譴責。

像管理員一樣，ESFJ人能感覺到周圍潛在的危險--------- 內在的起因、外部的因素、肆無忌憚的惡人、陰險的人性弱點等，所以這是一個不可信任、充滿了危險的世界。与其說ESFJ人疑心太重，倒不如說他們有高度的警惕性。所以他們是很好的保安人員，在醫葯保健和初等教育領域有很出色的表現。

對ESFJ人的描述
友好積极，精力充沛﹔健談親切，好交際﹔關心体貼，謹慎禮貌，易于共事﹔實際而正直﹔多愁善感，易受傷害﹔傳統盡責，做事有條理。

weird weird

the feeling is so weird...
i was having lecture,which is no use for me.
but, i was still coping notes,
halfway in the lecture, cannot stand already,i fell asleep
one of e reason is that i was v tired and it's also becos i was damn boring!
(but for about 10 minutes only(: i'm a good student man!)

i met new friends!(:(:(:
they are v nice ppl,
but i know maybe we wont see each others anymore after a few days.
and the feeling is weird again.
cos i was like happy chatting with a group of ppl who'll become close friends,
but i'm not included.

and i was like already having e preparation to go poly,but still listening to the principal having her speech about her care for all the tpjc's students.



i was like a lost man in a desert.



{ desert...? no,i'm planning to go wonderland! }

to me ,we are more than steadfast friends(:

"since you dont like to act independently,why dont you feel like having a boyfriend?"


if i tell you that you are the one i'm looking forward to,what will u think?

will you believe it?
will you respond to me with the same feeling as what I feel?


or you will just continue to walk and looking forward,dont bother to turn back and look at me.
or you will pretend that you have no concern for me anymore.
or you will keep your distance form me.

confuse


I hope that I could see the invisible Red Line ,tiding on my right little finger.
so that i'll be more sure about that you are the person that i have been looking for
for so many years.(:
and i'll be fully confident of making the right decision.





{ to me ,we are more than steadfast friends(: }

I am always here. C:

you are the best
because
1.you care for others
2.you enjoy yor life and willing to fully flesh it out
3.you are honest to yourself
4.you have any kind of leadership which make ppl around u follow
5.you are always happy (:


it seems easy ,but actually hard.
espically the last one.





...i failed(: but i really didnt take it to heart.
i think it was fun!
and i think the good luck from u all works!:D


i realised that i was too dependent on you all,
and when finally i became a bit more mature,
i derived the feeling of lost and loneliness from independent.
it taste bitter and sometimes insipid.
i dont like it..
can i both be mature and and keep the childlike heart ?
i'll try my very best to be like that.:)


"Although we might be separated very far apart in different places,
we'll definitely meet again.
It is because there is a very strong force between us,and that's also the reason which we meet each other."---words from 市川拓司(等待,是為了和你相遇)

(:
Thus,i know tt i'm not alone.

and

"If you keep looking backward to evade,you'll never notice that there are roads on your left and right side other than the road in front." --words from 市川拓司(等待,是為了和你相遇)



{I am always here. C: for you }

my wonderful days(:

chalet.from 12-14 march.Costa Sands/

(taken before we left e chalet):)
went to the same place at Downtown East with 4V last year,
but the feeling was totally different.
and i dunno how to definate the differences berween these two.


it was fun:)
but most of us (the "PAE" family) think it's OK.(:
BUT all the 123 who were present think it'll be great if all of our members came!
(:(:(:(:(:

I also think that it's a bit insipid,a bit lar...
cos most of us dont have the high feeling
anyway,thanks Shi Jun ,samuel,xu kang,shyan jie and all others who help to organise e chalet!
you guys are great man!:)

thanks for e byakuya from a v trustworthy and close friend
and e yu chen photo frame also(:
they were all big surprises to me!

btw,the "4"gang is cool!!haha :D
I like our class-tee shirt :D but it'll be better without the PAE...
oh,yeah,andand i had my first Ben&Jerry on the 2nd day of chalet!!
it's really v nice :D (big heart)
Wahh^u ^ waffle cone with Vanilla Chocolate Chunk & Chocolate Cointreau Fudge i think...it's expensive.
but it worth it:)

AND

I finally get in singapore poly(:
I walked a big round
cos it's really hard for me to make decisions
always swaying between other ppl's opinions
i've tried to change,but it's hard ):

anw,i'm really cant wait to study new things!
no more H20 ,C6H1206.... blablabla
(:
and i'll go to work before the 1st semaster of poly starts(:
and i'll not forget to improve my english also.:)
i'm looking forward to all the things in my life:)

thanks valerie!yes..(:
i almost forget that everything happen for a reason.
that's what i always believe in. (˙u ˙)//

在此也推薦給台灣的朋友們:
to recommend Ben&Jerry's!!
大推>>





{ my wonderful days(: }

Oh man!(:

one sad thing happened on me is that ....
my mom dont allow me to go Aikido):
unless i can sustain and prove to her that it's not a problem to me to do well in studies and also engage in other activities.
but the problem is that i'm not sure whether i really cope with JC work or not!
seriously,i really dont like taiwan's education system man..
to me,all the "rules" are too inflexible):
those rules are :tution tution tution!
and all the ppl go tution,so you really dont look like a bookworm or freak if you go tution everyday till 9 or 10 in the night.
my mom always tell me that :your ststus is different to others!dont think too much about others except study.
BUT
i'll never compromise on this...(:
i'll just be myself and be a happy and hard working s'pore student!:D
and i'll do my best and prove it!

btw,today is really a v v v happy day!
thanks for ur present!i really like it!!
We All LOVE spongebob man!haha
thanks a lot!
haha...and no need so many present lar(:
although to u everyday is my birthday:P
to me everyday is your birthday also!x)

i really like you all a lot le!!(:
cherish!
and omg, i think i'm addicted to hug ppl :x
it's true (: hugs make us happy!!(:

{ Oh man!(: }